Two Steps Forward...One Step Back

It's a shame that happens to be the a Paula Abdul song...but I'll let it slide this time.  :)

Brayden was taken off his breast milk feeds 3 days ago, due to his tummy just not processing it the right way.  The nurses are worried there may be some kind of obstruction, which in turn gets us a little freaked out.  His primary Dr is out of town, so today and tomorrow the nurses will be running tests to see if they can figure out what's going on. 

Kelli spent pretty much all day at the Hospital yesterday, as she wasn't able to see him Friday and Saturday.  She said that she got to hold him for a lot of that time, which was good for her, but we both find it hard to leave. 

This is really disappointing as he appeared to have gotten over the infection in his intestines, but now the nurses aren't sure if it's come back or not.  I guess it's the "not knowing" that really gets to us. 

Then again -- went to the Bible last night and my "daily reading" was Matthew 8.  In verses 23-26 Jesus calmed the storm -- "Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him.  Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat.  But Jesus was sleeping.  The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"  He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?"  Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm."

The first part of that Chapter showed Jesus' Healing Power -- which in our case would be deeply desired, but I felt led to share the calming of the storm story.  Why?  Well, I know right now Kelli is experiencing a storm.  I too am worried about the little guy, but have found some very calming peace knowing that Jesus is in total control of this situation.  Not to say Kelli doesn't have peace, but I just know that she is so in love with Brayden that she loathes seeing him in pain.

What we have to remember is that Jesus already knows the outcome of this story.  He knows why Brayden is going thru this, and He won't put more on Brayden than he can handle.  It would be my joy to look back on this situation to see all the wonderful works Jesus will have worked through it.  My first thought is -- what if this swollen belly leads the Dr's and nurses to something more severe...maybe that's why it isn't going away.  Maybe there is a larger problem that the Dr hasn't discovered yet, but thru these tests and cultures being examined, maybe they are able to catch something soon enough that will save him from further complications. 

Jesus can calm the storm, He can heal the wounded, He has this all under control.  Am I still nervous about it -- in my "humanness" ...sure, I'm still worried about Brayden.  However, I have to do all I can to let that go, and trust that Jesus has our best interests at heart. 

Please continue to pray, as we continue down this path with Brayden with Jesus as our guide. 

Thanks for stopping by...DD